• What’s wrong with me?

    by  • September 12, 2010 • Dating, Frustration, Love - Pure and Simple, Yearning • 4 Comments

    My best friend has a boyfriend.

    My sister sorta has a boyfriend.

    My roommates have boyfriends or at least have boys who will do things with them.

    And I have no one.

    Boys don’t seem to look at me. Why? Is there something wrong with me? Am I really that unattractive? I’m a little overweight, yes, but is that a reason for everyone to ignore me and pretend like I don’t exist?

    I haven’t ever been on a true date. I’ll be 20 next month. I haven’t been kissed since I was a junior in high school. I certinally haven’t had sex. I can’t even get boys to look at me.

    I want someone in my life who cares about me and loves me and who I can love back. Where is he? Why can’t I find him? I know I’m still young, and there is still plenty of time. But I want to have fun. I want someone who will take me out on a romantic date, or a fun date, and who thinks and dreams about me. I dream about him. He doesn’t have a face yet, but I still dream. Does he exist?

    I hope with all my heart he does.

    4 Responses to What’s wrong with me?

    1. MissBeanie
      September 12, 2010 at 11:54 am

      I have felt the exact same way in the past. Do things that make you feel good about yourself, that way you will be more confident when it comes to men. My weight has held me back before to but embrace yourself, you’re young and everyone is beautiful, you just have to believe you are. Love yourself, because that is the only way someone else will be able to. Smile and be strong.

    2. Messalina
      September 12, 2010 at 1:00 pm

      The greatest loves are the ones you wait for.

    3. Emily
      September 12, 2010 at 1:55 pm

      Nothing. Nothing is the answer. Nothing is wrong with you. And you are not the only one. I will be twenty one come November, and like you have never been on a true date or had sex. This is something that I hope you come to terms with in time. Whatever happens please do not alter yourself to be someone you are not just in the hopes that you will get the man you have been looking for. If anything this perseverance should push to be more who are and set your standards high because you have waited this long it should be a damn good man, and it will be a damn good man. Hold strong to your friendships and even stronger to yourself, people can only love you as much as you love yourself.

    4. Lia
      September 12, 2010 at 3:36 pm

      I have been in this boat before, as many other girls have, and the only answer I can really give is that you need two things: Patience, and confidence. Patience to believe that there are guys out there who are worth your time and who have countless experiences to offer you, and confidence to believe that you can get them. It may be a cliche, but it really is true that guys are attracted to confidence. If a girl appears comfortable with herself, then she seems approachable to a guy, she seems like someone who’s not afraid. And really, you’ve no reason to be, the men will come.

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