My best friend has a boyfriend.
My sister sorta has a boyfriend.
My roommates have boyfriends or at least have boys who will do things with them.
And I have no one.
Boys don’t seem to look at me. Why? Is there something wrong with me? Am I really that unattractive? I’m a little overweight, yes, but is that a reason for everyone to ignore me and pretend like I don’t exist?
I haven’t ever been on a true date. I’ll be 20 next month. I haven’t been kissed since I was a junior in high school. I certinally haven’t had sex. I can’t even get boys to look at me.
I want someone in my life who cares about me and loves me and who I can love back. Where is he? Why can’t I find him? I know I’m still young, and there is still plenty of time. But I want to have fun. I want someone who will take me out on a romantic date, or a fun date, and who thinks and dreams about me. I dream about him. He doesn’t have a face yet, but I still dream. Does he exist?
I hope with all my heart he does.