The boy with piercing blue eyes that always knew how to give me that look.
That raven hair you always managed to keep so perfectly tussled in that adorable way.
You who stole my heart and ran with it…you still have it.
I guess I should admit that I do not want you to hand it back…in the scattered little pieces that your goodbye left me with. You should know that you were so many firsts for me. The first guy to ever show me unconditional love, friends around or not. The first guy who ever kissed my soul with a single press from your lips upon me. The first guy to treat me like his equal, like a woman should be treated. You were the first to make me feel certain ‘things’ although you were not my first.
You, the most beautiful guy in my universe, I want to say thank you.
For loving me and my craziness, even we aren’t together anymore. Thank you for making me feel special and beautiful. Thank you for being the most wonderful heart mine will ever always be joined to. I will always love you more than I could ever tell you anymore…I love you, and it’s killing me slowly.
But you, who I had to look up to to wrap my arms around your neck, who never cheated, and was so into me that everyone else knew before I did. Thank you for being the best person I could ever ask for. I would tell you this myself…but I’m terrified to even say hello anymore.
I’m terrified because you and only you can break this spell you cast upon me. I’m no longer broken..your love fixed me. And I love you for that.
Thank you my joo’ish friend 🙂