I’ve got quite a few walls I need to break down, don’t I?
It takes me a long time to do it. I close myself off, I hide myself away, I prevent myself from getting hurt as best I can. Then you come in with a giant wrecking ball and whilst I’m with you, those walls are obliterated. With you, I am free.
I’m always amazed at how far we have come, but more importantly, how far you’ve come. Do you realise how often I look at you with awe? Do you know how much I stop and think “if I were straight, she’d be the one”? Do you know how often I fantasize about our future, together, friends until the very end?
You’re a beautiful person… hidden behind a mask of perceived “bitchiness” you’re a flower, already blooming. Everyone you let get close sees that, too. You are blossoming into one hell of a woman and it’s my honour in life to be by your side.
My dearest Koo-Koo-Ka-Choo, you and I have seen betrayal, heartbreak, falling outs, engagements, misery, anger and more… but we’re just as strong, despite all we’ve seen and all that’s occurred between us.
The worst and best is yet to come but we can handle it. You’re the strongest person I know and you are everything I am not. You are all I do not need to be, because I have you.
I have seen your darkness and I still want to spend the rest of my life with you.
I WILL spend the rest of my life with you.
Your dearest Panda