• a change

    by  • September 12, 2010 • Acceptance, Love - Pure and Simple, Self-Esteem • 0 Comments

    I’ve realized something about myself.

    I used to be a shy little girl, who would gladly like any guy that pays attention to her. Up until very recently.

    Now? Every guy that seems to possess an interest in me, I turn down. In some cases, turn down means “blow off”. I’m not always nice about it. Not mean. Just… passive aggressive. And I feel bad. I’m not a mean person, I don’t mean to be.

    Something in me has changed, though. I’m stronger, even if I don’t alway show it. And I don’t need to be in a relationship. Sure, I would like one. I get lonely. I WANT to be with someone. But I don’t need it. And I’m not going to settle.

    Sometimes, though, I’m afraid. I’m afraid that I’m just holding out for you, because I know a part of me does still have feelings for you.

    If it is, I hope its worth it. If not, I will be with someone when I want to be. If the right person comes along, I wont need to worry. If you aren’t the right one, if someone else is, then that will determine it. I hope.

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