• waiting

    by  • September 10, 2010 • Fear, Love - Pure and Simple, Miss You, Yearning for You • 1 Comment

    You come back in a week.

    I’m so excited and nervous.

    I’ve thought about you so much, your eyes, your odd sense of humor that I absolutely adore, those few nights together, but as your return comes closer I worry.

    Perhaps, I wasn’t suppose to wait.

    You never asked me to.

    The last month its felt like I was taken. Guys approached me but you were always on my mind. And now, what if it’s all just a fantasy and I’m only going to be let down when you get back.

    I guess what I’m trying to tell you is that while you’ve been away I’ve grown very found of the idea of “us”…

    One Response to waiting

    1. S
      September 22, 2010 at 5:26 pm

      I was in the exact situation this summer. If this were posted two months ago I would have thought I wrote it myself.
      My advice? Stop worrying about it. You will never know if you are in love with him or just the idea of him until you get to spend time with him again. Take a breath, prepare yourself for all outcomes, and know it will be okay either way. Don’t dwell.
      If you’re lucky, he will say something so beautiful that you will know for sure at that moment that you love him for who he is.
      If you’re unlucky, a week after that happens you will fall in love with another man and your heart will be split in half. :/

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