• Unreciprocated

    by  • September 10, 2010 • Confession, Disappointment, Friends, Love - Pure and Simple, Yearning for You • 3 Comments

    Dear friend,

    I told you from the moment I saw you I knew you’d be in my life forever.

    I just got that feeling.

    Like I’ve known you my whole life and every other one before this. That we were supposed to meet.

    And then right when I was going to tell you how much I loved you and wanted to be with you always, you told me you were gay.

    How can I be mad at you for that?

    I don’t think I’ve ever cried so hard. But I want you to know that we’ll still be best friends forever.

    The secret is that even though I know you’ll never love me like that, I can’t help but be attracted to you on every level, in every way possible. But you probably know that already.


    3 Responses to Unreciprocated

    1. Beth
      September 10, 2010 at 4:33 pm

      Thank you for your letter.

      I, too, love my gay best friend in every possible way… knowing he will never feel the same.

      I know exactly how you feel.

    2. TerriblyAlone
      September 14, 2010 at 12:08 am

      I know how you feel.
      I had a massive crush on my best friend. At the time, my boyfriend of 5+ years had just dumped me. I was ready to move on and love someone else (I guess that’s what rebounds are for).
      I had been envisioning our life together, my friend and I. We are exactly the same people. It is insane how compatible we are.
      He told me he had something to tell me, and my heart jumped out of my chest; I felt so excited that we would finally be able to be together.
      He told me he was gay, and my stomach turned. No longer would I be able to envision kissing him or feeling his touch.
      I’m very proud of him, it takes a lot of courage to be who you are in this world of ours today.
      Right now, I enjoy going out and drinking with him. I pretend that we’re together, and it doesn’t hurt quite so bad. But I fear that this friendship is becoming more and more toxic. When I find out about the guys he’s sleeping with and what they’re doing, it breaks my heart.
      I’ve got to stop, but I don’t think I can.

    3. Jessica
      September 14, 2010 at 6:27 am

      I used to have a crush on my best friend, until I realized he was gay. Since then I have developed very strong gay-dar. We are still very close, and our feelings for each other go deeper than love, BUT I now know the difference between the love I felt for him, and the love I feel with my current boyfriend.

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