It tends to hit me the most at night.
I know that is because this is when we talked most.
Yes, yes, we talked all the time, but there is something about hearing your voice next to me at night.
You made me feel safe, like nothing mattered,
We both said this would never change.
You said forever and I always agreed;
The smile in your voice made me feel like no other,
I can’t imagine how you can so easily walk out of my life.
After everything you said, was it all a lie?
I sit here alone, like I do every night.
I go over and over in my head how we both managed to get here.
I think about how easy it was for you to walk away.
How can you not be thinking about me?
Why do I feel like I am completely alone in this venture?
It kills me that after so many years you decided to just walk away.
With no explanation you walked out of my life.
I wish I had the strength to tell you exactly how I feel,
I wish I had someone to talk to other than my friends.
With all my problems I came to you,
Now that you’re gone I have no idea what to do.
I don’t want someone to just tell me it will take time to heal,
We both know this is something much more than that.