i have no reason to be sad.
i have a great life, great family, great friends. school comes easily. on the outside i’m a normal kid. i seem happy.
but i’m not happy.
maybe it’s just not enough, maybe i’ll never be content. all i know is i don’t want to live. i find the world meaningless. i feel like i want to scream.
but i just keep on smiling and let everyone pretend i’m ok. but i know i’m not. i think about taking that one final step, but i can’t do that to them, leave them blaming there-selves for my problems. and yet i can’t get it out of my mind, how easily i could make it for myself. every day i get closer and closer to the edge. i stare down hoping someone will pull me back.
if only they could see how close i was.