So we just broke up.
I have to admit I’d seen it coming for a while, and I guess you did too.
I know you kept saying that you wished we lived in the same city, but honestly, the distance was as important to what our relationship was as anything else. The traveling and the discovery of new places and things every time we saw each other was exhilarating, and our internet relationship let me open up in ways I never thought possible.
Over the past year you have transformed me and made me better in many ways. I am so grateful for the experience.
Do I wish we could have sex right now instead of giving up? Of course.
But the truth is there is no way for us to know what could have been if the conditions were different.
Right now my head is pounding and my chest feels empty. I guess it’s how I experience sadness. It hurts physically.
A few weeks ago I started a playlist that described our relationship over time. I was going to put it on my ipod and give it to you. While we were talking I added one last song. It Makes No Difference- The Band