• respect

    by  • September 9, 2010 • Disappointment, Doubt, Loneliness, Love - Pure and Simple, Yearning • 1 Comment

    I stayed home from work today. I am treated like a no talent nobody. I know I have skills, and am there to help (and keep up my skills). Yet I am treated like I am some kind of loser/half wit. So I stayed home, told them to call me when they decide I have something to offer. Even those that say they love me, aren’t there when I need them. Always something better to do. Someone else to play with, some place more relaxing and fun filled to be. Time off is for anything but spending time with me.

    I wonder if it me that is lacking, or is the world full of selfish, uncaring individuals. I get stressed by peoples lack of respect for each other and selfish uncaring actions. Or is it just me that is unworthy.

    Either way, I am home today, playing with my puppy. I know he appreciates me, he is telling me now, wagging his tail and wanting on my lap so he can lick my face and tell me he needs me.

    One Response to respect

    1. i cry at night too
      September 9, 2010 at 9:55 am

      I know exactly what you’re thinking and feeling in this letter. I’m sorry you’re feeling that way cause it’s an awful, lonely, and depressing state to be in. But don’t think for one second it’s because you’re unworthy..that’s a lie our minds will tell us. You are a beautiful person inside and out, and that’s what’s important. I’ve learned through my own obstacles that I can’t control other ppl or the circumstances, but I can’t control my attitude in those encounters. I found that loving myself was what I was missing, because when I love myself I don’t care what other ppl think, acts, towards me. Each day I try to find or do something that makes me happy. When I do that it becomes obvious that I look happier. And ppl see that.

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