• I’m Just a Body

    by  • September 8, 2010 • Confusion, Frustration, Love - Pure and Simple, Yearning • 4 Comments

    I feel like with every relationship I have gotten into, or every boy that I’ve talked to, they just like me for my body. Two out of three of my relationships we didn’t really talk, all we did was make-out, fool around. That’s how I got my last boyfriend to finally ask me out on a date, I started talking about sex and it felt like the next day we were dating.

    A boy started texting me the other night after I went to this party. He started telling me how good I look, how I have a cute ass, how he wanted to kiss me [but he didn’t because we don’t really know each other, if that changes anything]. And so we’re supposed to hang out on Saturday. I want to kiss him, but that’s all. I want to maybe make this something big, not something that I’ll regret in a few weeks, which is what inevitably happens to me each time I hang out with a boy.

    I don’t feel like boys like me for my personality. All they do is look at my somewhat decent look, and they see that I will flirt back with them, and so they take it I’m just a body.

    I have a personality that is much deeper and complex than anyone’s that I know. And, I really just want some boy to notice that. I want to find someone to talk to me intellectually, that will have a heated debate with me about politics or religion, but in the end of the day we still care about each other.

    But, what the heck is the chance of me finding that… I guess I’ll just go out with this boy on Saturday…

    4 Responses to I’m Just a Body

    1. Katie
      September 8, 2010 at 6:45 pm

      I wish guys would have signs, telling us which ones want a real relationship, so we could know easier. maybe try less party scenes, where a lot of guys go for hook ups? & I wish you luck hun, you deserve to be more than a booty call.

    2. J
      September 8, 2010 at 7:39 pm

      I know how you feel. I, personally, never expected to get into those types of situations… I didn’t think I possessed that sort of attractiveness. But for some reason, the few guys I have been involved in have seemed to want that more than anything else I have to offer. That’s the main reason why my ex-boyfriend broke up with me. Its funny when they see more, but all they want is physical.

      My advice, don’t kiss him. Hang out with him a few times. I know how hard it is not to kiss someone when you want to. But if you don’t do anything physical the first time and he still wants to hang out, that could be the sign you want. Either that or talk to him about it?

    3. srsly
      September 8, 2010 at 9:00 pm

      i know EXACTLY what you’re saying. seems for me i have what i think is a decent guy. we break up and he keeps trying to come back. just for sex. i can’t be bothered to even try and be in a relationship anymore.

    4. FlutteringHeart
      September 13, 2010 at 9:57 am

      I used to have the same problem and all of my life I just wanted to be loved and seen for what I was inside. I was prudish to a fault for a while but as I got older…sadly enough…I found that the only thing that men really want is sex. I even feel that way about my husband. I think all of us just want to be loved for who we are inside and let the rest follow.

      Don’t feel like you have to flirt or talk about sex for boys to like you. Oh…they will like you for sure but all they’ll want from you is sex.

      Let your insides shine outwardly before you get physical with anyone and you will reap the rewards:)

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