Well here we are, or should I say here I am, writing the letter I surely will never send and publishing it for the world to see. Figures I would do something like this instead of actually telling you but it’s probably better this way.
Well here goes, we have been friend for 10 years now, and for more than half of them my love has burned strong for you. I think about all the nights I lay there next to you just wanting to lean over and kiss you and how I never did. I think about you still in the mornings when I wake up and at night before I go to bed. I yearn for something I can never have. I remember all the nights that I thought there was something going on between us. But when you’re in love, you always remember it the way you want to, you always think something in your head because that’s what you want to believe.
Well that’s what I did, I thought you wanted me, because I wanted to believe it was true. I think the reason I have never gotten over you (and quite possibly never will) is because I’ll never know. I will never know what its like to kiss your beautiful lips and I will never know what its like to be held by your warm embrace, but I will always wonder. I will always wonder what it would be like for us to just let go of all those things that hold us back from each other.
Sometimes I can’t understand why you don’t love me and sometimes I think you do but you’re just too scared to admit it because you know what we have is special. I just want you to know that I love you with all my heart, I always have, and I always will. You will always be a part of me no matter where my life takes me. Your spirit will always follow me no matter where I go. I love you so much it hurts but I know that nothing will ever change the fact that you don’t love me. I wish I could make you love me but I know I can’t.