I had never in my life loved anyone like I loved you. I would have given up everything for you, but you weren’t ready and you broke my heart in a million pieces. What we had was once in a lifetime love, and I want that with no other man. I will love you for as long as I live, but refuse to be hurt by another man that way. My becoming gay isn’t because you failed in being a good man. You were just all I wanted, and I couldn’t have you anymore…so I turned to women, and I have to say I am glad I did.