• There won’t be a third time

    by  • September 5, 2010 • Acceptance, Betrayal, Grief, Letting Go, Lost Love, Love - Pure and Simple • 0 Comments

    Well I see the games that you play now. I have given you my heart, my help, been there for you when you needed me (haven’t I always), helped you through the bad times and enjoyed the good times as well (because there has been more of those than the bad). You say you want to spend the rest of your life with me, you say you love me, what’s worse is that your actions back up your words. I don’t believe you can fake that look in your eyes either. But shit! maybe I’m wrong. Maybe you can.

    You’ve broken up with me a second time in order to sort out your stuff. Well you know what!? If you were a man who really did love me, you would keep me by your side to help you ‘sort out your stuff’, because that’s what a relationship is about. Not push me away and then a couple weeks later update your facebook to say you are now looking for a relationship / dating. THOSE actions speak volumes.

    Clearly, you’ve sorted your stuf out VERY quickly (as opposed to months) and when I congratulated you on doing it so quickly that you are now looking for a relationship, you asked me what I’m talking about.

    I’m done with you and your bullshit. I love you still, but I’m sure that will wear off. My heart is not a ball that can be used to be bashed around any longer. It deserves to heal and that love be given to someone who actually KNOWS that they want. You confessed to me that night after we had a discussion that you hit a really low point the next day because you realisd that you made the biggest mistake of your life breaking up with me. Well my friend, clearly that confession was a load of bullshit as well.

    I really pity the poor girls that will be with you next. Clearly her heart will be broken as well OR your biggest fear will finally appear, YOU will be hurt. That’s why you bail out before it happens. As they say, what goes around, comes around. Good luck with the therapy and your dating/relationship. I’m done with you. I will be evaluating whether I even want to stay friends with you.

    I have cried until I think I can’t cry anymore. I have now turned a corner. I won’t let you make me feel like shit anymore.

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