In All honesty I am scared. Will you think about me when you go away? Will you miss me? I know going into the air force is something you want to do. And I will support you wholly in it…
But I am still scared.
I am afraid of being alone. Of having the false hope that you will come home… and then you never do. That some how, someway, someone will take you away from me. I am afraid that you will die.
I know I must be strong.
I know I need to suck it up and be brave. I am trying more than you know.
I love you so much. My life has gotten so much better since you have been in it. I feel like a better person just knowing you. And to be able to love you, and have you love me in return has been the most amazing thing I have ever felt.
I just don’t want to lose you.
I pray to God I won’t. Not for a very long time. I am here to support you, and give you strength. Maybe if I pretend to be strong enough, I will actually be strong enough, and this weakness inside me will go away.
I guess that is the best I can hope for.
I love you.
Please remember that.