• Scared

    by  • September 5, 2010 • Fear, Love - Pure and Simple, Miss You, Yearning for You • 0 Comments

    In All honesty I am scared. Will you think about me when you go away? Will you miss me? I know going into the air force is something you want to do. And I will support you wholly in it…

    But I am still scared.

    I am afraid of being alone. Of having the false hope that you will come home… and then you never do. That some how, someway, someone will take you away from me. I am afraid that you will die.

    I know I must be strong.

    I know I need to suck it up and be brave. I am trying more than you know.

    I love you so much. My life has gotten so much better since you have been in it. I feel like a better person just knowing you. And to be able to love you, and have you love me in return has been the most amazing thing I have ever felt.

    I just don’t want to lose you.

    I pray to God I won’t. Not for a very long time. I am here to support you, and give you strength. Maybe if I pretend to be strong enough, I will actually be strong enough, and this weakness inside me will go away.

    I guess that is the best I can hope for.

    I love you.

    Please remember that.

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