I was going through some old emails, the ones I save because they were special to me. I read one about a fight we got into, I had said some very harsh things that I did not mean and had not meant to be taken personally. This isn’t about that, you were right about everything in your response except one thing. You said “and we both know if you really wanted to off yourself, you would with or without my love.” the funny thing is you couldn’t have been more wrong. The love I have for you and what love I know you have for me is practically all that keeps me going. It’s very probable you’ll read this though I don’t know if you’ll remember any of what I’m talking about but if you do then I hope you’ll realise how much I really do love you.