You’re never going to read this, at least not anytime soon, I hope. First things first, I am completely and utterly in love with you, theres no denying that. Secondly, I can’t be with you anymore, but I can’t bring myself to tell you this. I can’t see the person I love get hurt. You’re probably confused… I have such a big fear of commitment, it’s not even funny.I’m scared of letting my guard down and having people get close to me, and you’ve knocked my guard down compeltely. I don’t like people getting close to me because they have the ability to hurt me so easily, in any way. Like leaving. People always leave, nothing lasts forever. This is why I try to avoid relationships as much as possible. You were so different though. I fell in love with you so fast, and that never happens. It probably never will again either. I’m moving far away in less than a year… I would rather get hurt soo badly right now than want to kill myself when I have to leave you next summer. Any girl would be so lucky to have you in her life. You’re so amazing. I don’t know how I ever got a boyfriend like you. I’ve never felt this way about anyone I’ve ever met, and I can guarantee I never will again. You’re going to be the one that i regret ever letting go. I don’t want to do this but I have to. I love you so much, even when I’m with another guy, you’re going to be the one that I’m still in love with.