There are so many, many things I want to say to you. So many things I want to be. So many things I wish would happen. I want to tell you I love you. I want to be special to you again. I want to matter and be important to you. I want you to care again.
You would be surprised by how many people we know think we’re meant to be. How many think you and I act like we’re married. And how many think we’re perfect for each other. I just wish you knew and then maybe you’d see it too.
I never thought in a million years I’d ever find someone like you. And I’ve lost you. I hope and pray that I haven’t lost you forever, because that would really suck. You are amazing. You are…everything I want. I love everything about you. You have flaws and quirks, but they make you, you, and that’s what I love.
All I can do now is keep praying and dreaming, because right now, my dreams are better than reality and I don’t want them to be. I pray and wish and hope everyday that you can be mine again. Do you know what it would be like? I can guess at it…it would be happiness. It would be us cuddling and just being content to be with each other. It would be me kissing you every chance I got and knowing that each one was precious. It would be watching a movie and holding one another. It would be cooking together and having fun. It would be just going to a book store and reading for an hour or two. It would be taking care of one another and be there for them and being everything the other one needed. It would be all that and more.
I know that all this is impossible. Or it seems that way. I pray that someday it is possible and that I can have this dream of mine become reality.
All of this rests in your hands and Gods. And I pray to God, that he may give me a second chance at this dream I have…