• I’m Nervous

    by  • September 4, 2010 • Friends, Heartbreak, Love - Pure and Simple, Yearning for You • 4 Comments

    To My Love,

    I have a date tonight. But I’m nervous. I don’t want to go. I don’t want you to think that I’m over you, and that I’m moving on. Because I’m not. I don’t want you to move on as well.

    I think about you every second of the day and not a moment goes by and I’m not worrying about you. I constantly thinking of new ways to surprise you and make you happy, even though we are just friends.

    I’ll do anything for you. Just to make you smile.

    I’m not going to enjoy tonight. You’re probably having the time of your life right now. With your friends, drinking, and laughing. While I’m sitting here waiting for him to arrive, and disgusted with myself every second.

    I am trying to say, what I want to say, without having to say, “I love you”.


    Your Ex-Lover

    4 Responses to I’m Nervous

    1. katie
      September 4, 2010 at 2:56 pm

      You took the thoughts and feelings right out of my head. Same place, same thoughts, same sick feeling.

    2. Ex
      September 4, 2010 at 3:01 pm

      Thanks Katie 🙂

      it’s like a huge rock in my stomach.
      I cant get over it.

      One day, ill confess, but right now, ill stand by and watch him with someone else.

    3. katie
      September 4, 2010 at 3:37 pm

      if he has just gotten with this new person, not long after you two have broken up, and previously you know that he did love you, chances are that he might still be thinking of you while he’s going out with her. He may be comparing her to you. I dont know your circumstance and I would hate to give you false hope, but what you are going through, there is a possibility so is he. Give him time, give you time and just be open to what the future holds. I hope there is hope. xx

    4. Ex.
      September 5, 2010 at 5:46 am

      Baww thanks Katie. I always hope. I always wish for that ounce of strength to say something… One day. I will wait. Even though people say I shouldn’t. I will wait, and no one is going to change that. I hope everything works for you too <3 May all of your wishes and dreams come true.

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