• I Don’t Mean It When I Say, “I wish we never met”

    by  • September 4, 2010 • Confusion, Heartbreak, Loneliness, Lost Love, Yearning for You • 0 Comments

    M,

    Its seven months since I’ve heard from you. I don’t even know if you are still alive. My first and only love. You broke my heart by literally not saying a word. You just stopped answering my calls. I keep telling myself I would feel better if I knew you were with someone else, that then I could move on. But now I think knowing that will just be the nail in my coffin, the one thing to push me over the edge, literally.

    I get so lonely everyday, trying to replace you with someone else, it never works. I think they can see through me, see I have no interest in them but to use them to push away thoughts of you.

    I wish I knew what I did wrong, maybe I could change, be the better person you obviously did not see in me.

    I see your face daily. I still hold the memories of you in my mind. I can’t let me go. I feel like a stalker, I sometime Google your name, hoping to find some trace of you or your face.

    I hope you get this letter, because I’ll always love you.

    – D

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