We’ve been apart for over a month now. You’ve already moved on and the thought of someone else in my life literally makes me sick. We spoke of so many things together….we were so close to buying a ring. I never meant to hurt you, you’ve been my best friend for so long…I know we were scared about moving this further but we both wanted it…you always said if we broke up I would be the one to ignore you….instead it’s the other way around. I can’t believe you blocked me after everything we’ve been through together…do you remember the night I drove literally through a tornado to spend my first night with you in my arms because I told you I loved you in Jersey…I drove there knowing what storms were brewing, that night was the best night of my life. I think of you every day…there isn’t a single thing that doesn’t remind me of you. You’ve already moved on too….bestfriends for 5 years and we were lovers for a year and a half after that. I couldn’t hold my stress back from work…but you knew I was upset…I did the same for you at your job, I never let it bother me and didn’t take it to heart…why did you just give up and stop talking to me….I never abandoned you. I can’t bare to think of someone else lying next to you…being around you…making love to you. I break down every day…everything in my life has changed and I can’t accept it.
You use to say if I ever left there would never be anyone else for you in your life and you would be completely alone…do you really think that statement was any different for me?