• Not so content with losing

    by  • September 3, 2010 • Frustration, Grief, Heartbreak, Love - Pure and Simple, Yearning for You • 2 Comments

    I’m losing you.
    I feel it like a punch to my stomach.

    At night I lay awake thinking about you. Having you hold me, just one more time. I feel you slipping further and further away from me, and there’s nothing I can do. I thought about buying a plane ticket to come surprise you for your birthday, but then I remembered. I love you more than you love me. Why did you say you were going to come visit? Why would you tell me, you were going to move out here with me? I don’t understand the point of stringing someone along when I am so far away from you. I’m surrounded by such good looking people, and all I can do is compare them to you.

    I hate this hold you have over me.

    When did I get so lost inside of you?

    2 Responses to Not so content with losing

    1. Ashes
      September 4, 2010 at 3:32 pm

      hi there.. i know exactly what you are going through. i am in a long distance relationship and i am really not sure when the distance will come to an end.. i do feel bound to him, i cant even imagine being with anyone else.. my simple advice to you is just to go along living your life as best you can. of course you wont forget him, but you need to stay sane right… so just go out enjoy life, do what you love doing.. it may sound cliche but if he is for you he will come to you.. i too am trying to swallow that which i just told you but it helps on the not so good days.. just know that if it doesn’t work out,maybe his purpose was just to have you open your heart to someone, that too i try to live by.. not everyone that comes into our lives comes for the purpose that we wish them to serve. sometimes it can be the exact opposite of what we think their purpose is.. i just say hang in there if this guy is worth it… here’s a little good luck your way..

    2. Clinonymous
      September 21, 2010 at 2:27 pm

      Thanks Ashes. I bought the plane ticket for his birthday..and he bought one to visit me. Sometimes the best things in life really are worth waiting for. Thank you <3

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