I’m scared. I’m scared it’ll never go away. It’s been a couple months, but whenever you come in my presence, or just if i talk to you for a couple minutes EVERYTHING comes back. I miss you. More then you could ever imagine. I wasn’t in love, but I do truely love you as a person. No one knows you like how I knew you. No one knows how you made me feel. No one knows how much I loved being with you and being around you. No one knows how much I liked you for you. I miss everything about you, you were everything I ever wanted. I wish I was ready.. I wish we could’ve had something forreal. I tell everyone I’m over you, and that I dont care anymore and that were just friends now. But really.. I wish so bad that in a year or so we can go back to everything we had before. But I know it will never happen, and I can’t ever go back to you. I wish I didn’t feel this way but I can’t control it. There’s been other people in my life, but no one compares to you… I never thought I’d be like this. I never thought I’d be so secretly attached to you but I am. I wish you didn’t mess with my head.. I wish I hadn’t felt anything when you kissed me when we were drunk, I wish I didn’t have to say no every time you want to come by and see me, I wish everything would just go away. I love you, and Happy Birthday.