Why can’t you see that knowing you’re so far away and hurting pains me? I try to be positive but sometimes it is just too much. Sometimes I just wish you would end it. It seems like things would be easier that way. But then when I think of you with another girl, I want to cry all the tears physically possible. I want to scream in frustration when I’m with you and scream with anger when I’m not.
I never wanted to be that jealous person, but look at what I’ve become. How can you stand it? I know…because you are that amazing of a guy. I admire so many things about you.