You didn’t have to rip my heart out again…especialy with my best friend. I needed you but you never got it. I was crying out to you but all you saw was the fake im f.i.n.e.
Why couldn’t you just love me back? Why CAN’T you just love me back? You wonder why I have abandonment issues…this has to be the last time. You’ve made me spiral into this, down to where I never feel like I can get back up, so I have to just fake it out to where no one can tell that I fell asleep crying or can tell that the worst thing hurts when I see you in the halls at school and you won’t even look at me anymore!
Whats wrong with me!? What did I do!?
My father always said that the day you find the guy that’s to good for you stay with him…but now because of the promise I can’t. I promised them all that that was the last time for us…but what you don’t know is that when I made that promise I cried while I agreed. I didn’t make it because I wanted to, I made it because I knew that if I kept doing this to myself I would end up like Daniel, 6 ft under.
Ya I know….that was a low blow even for me. It sent chills up my spine even thinking to type it. If you read this, I’m sorry…just forgive me for whatever I did wrong and have fun with her.
I’m sorry I couldn’t make you happy.
-Olive to ES