To Myself :
Woe is me in this moment although I’m trying my hardest to change my thought patterns. I guess it’s hard for me to figure out if the things I’m going through are ” normal ” or beyond sensitivity level. My best friend is going to Afghanistan for a year and I have seen him through 3 deployments to Iraq and all went well (well the best it could). Somehow and for some reason this feels so different. A year? Is that a long time or does time really go by that fast. This has all consumed me today. I have tons of scattered thoughts running all over the places in my head and it would probably take many pages to get it all out. I’m trying really hard to stay positive and focus on myself. That’s it for now. If you do read this hopefully I didn’t play the victim role too hard. I feel for everyone who has to experience any kind of loss, it just sucks.
Blessings and thank you,