• Just Friends?

    by  • August 26, 2010 • Confession, Friends, Love - Pure and Simple, Smitten, Yearning for You • 0 Comments

    Dear Derek,

    We’ve built a pretty good relationship over the summer. We tell each other lots, and have helped each other fix ourselves up. You say you’ve liked me for a year. I don’t know what do do about that. Sure, I like you, but it’s pretty much just as a friend… I think.

    Recently, I’ve been daydreaming about you. About kissing you. But I really don’t know where that will lead to. We’re 300 miles apart right now, since I went back to school. And I don’t know even if I want a relationship with you, or even if that would work over such a distance.

    One reason I’m not sure that it would work is because I don’t have a super huge crush on you. Sure, I like you… but I’m not sure if that’s enough, if that’s a good thing to start a relationship on or not.

    I could date you. I could. But I might be doing it for all the wrong reasons… mostly cause I don’t like being lonely and I’m addicted to being touched – if you put your arm around me, I’ll curl into you and sneak my arms around you so both your arms go around me.

    Most of this, I’ve told you already. And I like that about us, that I can tell you ANYTHING. But I still only like you as just a little more than a really good friend. And I’ve already told you reasons that I don’t want to date you – cause I don’t want your ex to hate me, cause you’re too much like my ex, cause I don’t want to date another guy that’s too similar to him, cause you’re too far away, cause I don’t want to feel like I’m using you just to keep from being lonely.

    I think, what I want, is to just stay friends… and we’ll figure out the rest as we go along. And I think that’s what you want too.

    I kind of don’t want to fall in love with you… but I kind of think I’m already halfway there.

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