You make me feel worthless. I wish you’d stop hurting me like this. Then I just feel stupid and guilty and want to cry. God, I don’t know how much longer I can do this. All I know is all I want. And all I want is to be in your arms. Fuck you not having a cell phone. Fuck you blowing me off then only time I get to see you. Fuck these tears I’m holding back for no reason except the little strand of hope as fragile as a hair off my head. Every moment I don’t hear from you my emotions build. Anger, desire, and sadness all wrapped into one bomb. Leaving me a wreck in a human shell. I feel crazy. Why would you do this to me. You say you love me. Then how can your hurt me like this and not care, or even realize after 10 months.