that it were possible for us to be together. It is pretty much all I think about when I am not around you. When I AM with you, it takes every ounce of strength I have to keep from taking your hand in mine, wrapping my arms around you, pressing my lips against yours and kissing you until we both forget our own names. You have no idea how hard it is to keep myself from doing just that.
I love you so much… and that is why we can’t be together. I love you too much to put you through the heartbreak that would ultimately result from our relationship. It would be amazing at first, we both know that. But eventually our faith differences would keep us from sharing 100% of ourselves with each other. And you deserve a full 100% of whoever you end up with.
We are already so connected as “just friends.” We finish each others sentences, say the same thing at the same time and can count our differences on one hand. In a way, we already can’t live without each other. I can’t imagine how attached we would become if we were to start a relationship, and how much it would hurt both of us when it ended.
So I’m gonna take the safe road. The friend road. The road where the longing is there… until you find someone else. She won’t replace me, but she will be better for you. She will be able to give 100% of herself to you.
And when I see you two together, the ache in my heart will be my love for you, the love that could never fully be realized by me… the love that was so strong it led you to another.