I love you so much it hurts. Every time you send me a friendly ‘i love you,’ I well up with tears and tell you ‘i love you too,’ only I say it from the depth of my heart. I want to hold your hand and kiss your cheek. I want to be your everything, like he is. But I can’t be. I’m just not your kind, I’m not your kind. People tell me how perfect we’d be together, but all I can tell them is, “too bad, he’s gay.” And the hole in my heart grows bigger, and my soul sinks even lower. I love you, so much it hurts. I can’t stand it anymore. I get so close to telling you my true feelings, but I don’t want you out of my life. Maybe one day, but not right now. Gosh, Joey, I love you. I love you.