• Mom, I miss you.

    by  • August 25, 2010 • Family Stuff, Grief, Love - Pure and Simple, Miss You, Parents, Those Gone Before Us • 1 Comment

    Four months ago today, I could hug you and tell you how much I love you. How we were all going through this together and that’s why we would pull though, because we’ve done it before and we’ll do it again. In 3 days it will be four months since you left without saying goodbye. I won’t ever stop asking myself, if I could save your life once why couldn’t I have done it twice?

    Every day I think about something that you’re going to miss. I’m growing up, Mom. I’m 18 today, and I miss you more than ever. I’m putting everything I have into being strong but I don’t even really know what that means. I’m not ready to grow up without you. I’m not ready to grow up at all. I’m scared beyond belief, I’m terrified.

    Even though we have so much family, and so many friends who are there to support my dad, brother, and I, I can’t help but feel lost and alone. I’m at a place where I never thought I’d be in life. I didn’t even know that feeling like this existed. I don’t know how to do this without you and Grandma, and I really don’t know anything about anything, anymore.

    I have so much more to say to you. I love you, I miss you, and I’m sorry.

    your daughter.

    One Response to Mom, I miss you.

    1. you know who
      August 25, 2010 at 4:15 pm

      you’re not alone. I’m scared too. My 18th birthday, no matter how much fun i had, was terrible. You can never help but think that there are going to be so many significant things in your life that she’s not going to be here for, just remember what she would have done if she was. Remember how proud of you she would be. Because i promise you she would be very proud.

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