I love you so much. It’s weird, considering the distance, and the circumstances…
You know, I never really loved anybody before…I never really felt loved, either. And now suddenly here’s the most perfect man in the world.
But I can’t help thinking…What if it doesn’t work? What if the plan is always changing, pushing the date back until we just give up? What if I do get there, and it’s nothing like we imagine? What if things all go wrong and I’m not what you wanted or you, unimaginably, aren’t who I think you are?
But I’m too scared to ask you, because then you’ll get scared that I don’t want to be with you, which should be answer enough…It should tell me that everything will be perfect.
I’m just new to this, and it’s so scary that things may turn out horribly…
You’ll never know. Not really.
Forever and a day,