• What happens then?

    by  • August 9, 2010 • Grief, Loneliness, Lost Love, Yearning for You • 0 Comments

    What happens if you have moved on? What happens then? Will I be on my own loving you forever? Will I realise that you no longer love me back? Of course not… I’ve already realised it… I was just a girl you went out with, done and dusted, history. I bet that it meant nothing to you. It was just something every guy goes through, right? For me, it was so much different. I loved every minute of everyday that I spent with you. I loved you and I still do. But there is not a thing I can do about it. Because you don’t care anymore, so why should I? I can’t, I don’t want to but somehow, my heart won’t let me stop loving you. And frankly, I don’t want to. However much it tears me apart, I don’t want to. I’d rather hurt than feel nothing at all. If it means I can feel how I feel about you now and see you everyday, then I don’t have a care in the world how much it hurts! The pain is my only reminder that you were real and that we shared something. Now, when I think about how you and me will never be together again, it feels like there is a dagger piercing through my heart, like there is a big hole inside me, and only you can complete it. But you won’t, can’t, couldn’t, wouldn’t…

    Can’t you see? I need you… But maybe if you’re so stupid and can’t see how much I need you, not how much I want you, then maybe I should go, leave, run and hide… You wouldn’t feel any different! I would… I could never leave you, especially not the way you left me!

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