I wish I hadn’t taken you back. I love you, I truly do. But you promised change and I haven’t seen it. You are so controlling it makes me sick. I hate how you turn everything around on me and how you make me feel like I have so many problems. Yes, I do have problems. But so do you. I am planning on leaving you. You don’t know it yet because I’m not strong enough to tell you. Because I’m afraid you’ll manipulate me into changing my mind. I love you, and I wish that were enough. But I can’t spend the rest of my life with a man who can’t even respect my boundaries. You don’t know HOW to even begin to respect me, I feel like I’m the dirty clothes on the floor around you, the ones you toss aside when you’re done but always pick them back up again for reuse. You say I’m going to be around forever, that we’re going to get married. But I WONT. I will leave you. I just need the courage.