I’m starting to wonder: Is sex just “something fun” for me now? It used to be so meaningful to me. I always said I’ll only have sex with someone I love. But now it’s like it doesn’t matter anymore. I think it might be because I stayed with a guy for 9 months who was in love with me, but I didn’t love him back, and we were intimate a lot. Maybe I’m just so used to not having sex with someone I love now.
But now I’m questioning all of my morals. I don’t know what is wrong and what is right. I’ve just been doing what makes me happy in the moment without any consideration for how it might affect me.
The last guy I had sex doesn’t seem to like me anymore. It seems he got what he wanted and is done now. But oddly enough… that doesn’t make me mad. I honestly don’t care, and that’s kind of what worries me.