I’m so torn. I love you so much, but something is eating away at me, telling me that I need to let you go. Is it my selfishness? Is it because I don’t feel like I’m strong enough to make the distance work? Is it because I secretly hope for something better? Is it because I sometimes think about another guy who I never really gave a good chance at love with? I think it is everything, boiled into the fact that we just ultimately aren’t meant to be with each other. It seems so unbelievable that we aren’t, because everything with you is PERFECT. It’s actually kind of sickening how perfect we are for each other, nothing seems to go wrong when we are together. Yet, whenever we are apart, or before I am falling asleep at night, I just think about how there is something missing. I’m not sure what it is, which is why it is so hard for me to just let you go. I don’t know if I’m just being silly and taking for granted what we have because I’m scared I will be hurt again, or if I am really missing something. I’m just so confused, and I thought writing it all out might help, but it just made it worse. I wish my heart would follow my head. I wish I wasn’t confused. I wish I was stronger. I wish I could love you as much as you love me.