• What you don’t know

    by  • August 1, 2010 • Confusion, Fear, Lost Love • 1 Comment

    I’ve never been the one to hurt anyone and it scares me to think that I could possibly hurt you. I just feel trapped in this emotionless pit of a relationship with you. The fire is gone and the butterflies have escaped me. I no longer get excited when your name appears on my caller id, instead I dread the dull conversation that is to come. I fake happy when you ask what’s up because I don’t want to have to tell you what I’m really thinking. I’m scared to end this, because when we’re together it feels right. It’s the times we’re apart that I question our bond. I’m scared to admit any of this because I fear I’d regret it in the future.

    What scares me the most though is that you might actually agree.

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    One Response to What you don’t know

    1. daniel
      January 21, 2012 at 10:55 am

      Found this link in a list of old bookmarks she had left on my computer. My god… I’m positive she wrote this. And about me.

      It is over now, she saw to that. I share my blame and regret what I did and more importantly what I didn’t do but, really, it takes two to tango and honey you have your share as well.

      I hope you do come to regret it. I didn’t curl up in a ball and cry my eyes out. I took this pain as an opportunity to grow and become a better person. At first the motivation was for you but I came to realize it was for me, that I needed it, so that if you do call me I’m ready for you and, if you don’t… I’m ready for that and what follows as well.

      The way you went about it… that hurts so bad because I know I did nothing to deserve such harsh treatment. It hurts worse than imagining you in his arms, the arms of a man you once said you would take out a contract on if you could.

      Blessed be my lovely wife.. you’ll always be my wife. And you are forgiven, know that if you know nothing else.



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