I know that I haven’t done a good job keeping my promise. I know that I don’t really deserve you. But it doesn’t change the way I feel.
I remember the day we met like it was yesterday. You overheard a conversation I had with my friend about my ex. How he got my so called best friend pregnant. You could see that I was hurt and that I was fed up. You told me about the bad break up you just when through. You told me all about your kids. And before two hours were up we were making out.
I knew that you were only going to be here for a week but it was long enough. I knew you were the only one I wanted to be with. But I also knew my parents would disapprove. You were at my house to work not hook up with me. So I had to be careful.
The day you left you said you wanted to be with me. That you wanted to do the long distance thing. All I said was I would keep in contact and we would see what would happen. I said that I hope you find that girl that makes you happy and keep up with how crazy you are. To which you said you hoped I was that girl.
I would have said yes right then and there but I’d been hurt so many times and I couldn’t handle more at the time. Besides the way I saw it was most long distance relationships don’t work out. So why set myself up for that?
I’m sorry I haven’t called. I’m sorry I haven’t been in contact. I’m sorry if I hurt you. But know that I still want to be with you and that I have not dated one guy since you left. Cause even though it doesn’t seem like it I can’t see myself with anybody else. And I’ve fallen in love with you.