It is hard for me to be just a friend sometimes. I feel like we started something that we could never finish. Now it is hard to go back to being the friends we were. Even if we were to just sort of pick up where we left off, that wouldn’t help me to stop thinking of you this way. Well, maybe it would… LOL. I could know it was possible at least instead of limbo or worse.
I don’t want to cut you out of my life either. That is what I have had to do with situations like this in the past. You really are a good friend, a joy to talk to, and someone i need to vent to occasionally. I really like bouncing ideas off of you, but how can i stop thinking of our bouncing bodies? or soft lips?
The worst part is i don’t know if you really even feel this way anymore. You probably don’t and having it be one-sided just hurts.
I avoid you sometimes. I know its so bad, so not a friend thing to do. I don’t message you as often as i used to, because of how much it pains me to not talk with hope like we used to.
I want to be friends, but i want this hole in my chest to go away. I’d tell you all of this, but i don’t think it is a good idea. I think this would just make you feel bad, and you don’t deserver that.
So I don’t know what to do. I’ll just continue to be a friend. I like our friendship, but it hurts me too. Right here –_ (L)
If you read this and know it is me; that is fine. Please forgive a foolish boy. If not; it’s a load off anyways to attempt these words finally.