We used to be really close, or at least I thought we were. I mean we talked to each other all the time and hung out constantly. I am not sure what exactly changed because all of a sudden you stopped putting as much effort into the relationship. I loved you with words, gifts, time, acts of service, and physical touch, so I know I didn’t miss your love language. I went out of my way to make life better for you, but nothing seemed to make it like it was. I don’t think I will ever know what made our relationship change. I knew you still liked me, but it was hard to not think that you didn’t like me and was rather annoyed by my love.
I remember seeing you after not having talked in almost a year. My heart stopped and time froze. I didn’t know how I could fake being okay if you talked to me. Sure enough you walk over and say hello like nothing has changed, like we have talked recently. I realized after talking to you for awhile that you are just not someone that I want to invest that much effort into after all now that I see your true colors. You broke my heart and made my year difficult. I could not seem to get over you. You told me that night that we should catch up and get coffee sometime. Everything inside of me wanted to say no, but I went along with the idea trying to think of ways to get out of it later.
I remember sitting there wondering how I was ever going to walk in that door and lie through my teeth about how great life is. Truth is right before I stepped out of the car, I realized that I am finally over the pain you have caused me. You are never going to be a good friend that I tell my deepest darkest secrets to. You probably do not even know the pain you caused me and I can’t put it on you if I am too afraid to confront you about it. The relationship is just not important enough to me to confront you.
So I guess I will see you when I see you. If you don’t stay in contact for years at a time, I will not take it personally, but rather realize that you just suck at maintaining relationships. The ball is in your court. I am done making the first move.