Hey, its me. I have so much I want to say, I just don’t know where to start. I guess I will start by saying I know neither of us thought we would be where we are today, at this moment in our lives. I look back and I remember the very first conversation that we had. Then I also remember the very first kiss, and the first time we had sex. It was all amazing and I remember feeling like a little school girl again, with her first crush. Its been a little while now since we have been seeing each other, and I find myself always checking my phone to see if you have texted me or not. I feel like you have become my addiction. I am always wondering if you are becoming emotionally attached, and what you truly feel deep down inside when you think of me. Sometimes when we have sex it feels different, it feels as if you really want to be with me, then I don’t hear from you for a few days. I begin to wonder if your feelings are scaring you off, and you just can’t begin to face it. I know there is a big diffence in our age, but you have said that doesn’t matter. I just keep playing all of our conversations over and over in my head. I too don’t know where my emotions are in all of this as well. I guess I have my feelings standing on guard until I know exactlly how you feel. You always tell me that you will tell me when your feelings start to change, but in the back of my mind I am always wondering if you really will. I know I am still currently married, but you know where I stand in all of that. I guess I just want to say I really enjoy the moments that we have together, and if you did become emotionally attached at any point, I am ok with that. All I ask is that you please tell me when that happens, don’t leave me hanging!!