• The Great Conversation

    by  • June 20, 2010 • Knock it Off, Parents • 1 Comment

    I have been waiting for this moment for 18 years. The moment in which I am no longer under your reign over me. The moment in which I a, in complete control of myself and hold all the power in my hands. The moment when you have nothing to leverage me with. The moment when I give you the biggest ultimatum you will ever hear. The moment when I ask you to part with money or with your daughter.

    I cannot wait to tell you that you can choose being selfish or having your daughter in your life. I hope you make the right choice. This will be the first moment in life where you cannot use money against me to manipulate me into doing what you want.

    You have been a horrible father to me all these years and yet you seem to think you have done such a great job. How could you think that? All you really do is constantly degrade me and make me feel worthless. Everything I do seems to be wrong and not up to your standards. I mean I buy you a birthday gift and you yell at me for spending money on you instead of saying thank you. You tell me that I am a bad investment. So basically that I am just a business transaction to you and not even human. I swear you keep tally of how many hours I spend with you, how many words I speak, and how many dollars of yours I spend.

    What kind of father asks their child what they will do in return for dinner? Honestly, I don’t think it is too much to ask you to cook dinner once a week.

    You are the most bipolar person I know and need to learn to stop displacing your anger onto me. Stop telling me you love me and start living it out because your words mean nothing to me.

    I hate spending time with you and feel like I have digressed in my character after spending time with you. If you loved me, then you would support me serving at church and trying to become a better person to deal with your ridiculouness.

    Thanks for teaching me how not behave and ruining my self confidence. You have scarred me for life and if you ever want a real relationship with me, you are going to have to put a lot of effort in. Loving me through yelling about me leaving too soon does not work. You are gonna have to try a lot harder.

    One Response to The Great Conversation

    1. TheUnwantedOne
      June 20, 2010 at 9:05 pm

      You are enough! Never let anyone tell you different because that means they aren’t!

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