Past: I was not myself. I could not control myself. Too much pain was in my life and I did not know how to deal with it since I was only a child. I would never hurt you, but my words and actions made you feel that I would. Truth is, I never did too bad, but scared you.
Present: I am truly sorry for that and I wish that I could take all of it back. I am sorry for the pain that it caused you and the effects that it has had on you. It is just so hard that over a decade has passed, but you are still afraid of me. I have not been anything like that in a long time and it sucks to be held to the past.
Future: I hope that you will forgive me for this some day and know that I would never hurt you like that ever again or make you feel like that again. I know that day will come, so I just have to be patient and wait for it. I just hope that it comes sooner than later.