Could you lay off of the dreams tonight? Can I FINALLY get a full¬†nights sleep without waking in the middle of the night gasping for¬†breath?
I have not had a full, intrupted, good 8 hours in over a month. Do you¬†know what it is like to go to sleep, and be afraid of the¬†unpredictability of your OWN mind?
Last night, I had one of the happiest dreams of my life. It was about¬†this girl… a random girl with no face, who I fell in love with. I¬†woke up, thought about my dream, realized it was a dream, and cried¬†because I knew that I would never see my soul mate again.
Two nights ago, I dreamed that my mother forced me to kill all of my¬†pets… I woke up with the pillow damp, sore eyes, and tears STREAMING¬†down my face. I cried for an hour… at four in the morning… and¬†then had to get up two hours later.
THREE nights ago, I was in an empty circus tent… or at least I¬†THOUGHT it was empty. In my dream, a clown was chasing me with a¬†butcher knife, but I wasn’t afraid of him. As soon as that¬†butcher¬†knife¬†turned into free tickets for the show though, I ran like HELL.
These dreams are so confusing… I just don’t know what to think¬†anymore. I am afraid to go to sleep because I REALLY do not want to¬†dream. It is really getting to me, and I don’t know what to do about¬†it!
Well… off to sleep… wish me luck.