• I will win!!!!!

    by  • June 4, 2010 • Inspiration • 4 Comments

    I don’t know if i’m ready for this weekend. A full weekend of dancing and walking around outside half nude. A weekend of being stared at judged and oggled by people. I have been dieting but i still hate my body i have been working out like a fiend but i see no result. I am not ready for this i haven’t lost that thirty pounds yet and i disgust myself when i look in the mirror. I can’t do it the though of belly dancing by the fire with 20-30 people mostly guys watching it terrifies me i want to cry i wish i had cut 5000 calories this week and not 3000 i wish i had cut 6ooo last week and not 4ooo I hate this. I hate being afraid to eat i hate trying to eat 500 calories a day instead of the 2000 i am supposed to but i will lose this weight i will conquer the bulge 5 more miles run 2 more hours of pilates a day and about 1,500 less calories and i will win this war _:(
    Beating the chubb

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    4 Responses to I will win!!!!!

    1. TARA
      June 5, 2010 at 8:06 pm

      you can do it i don’t know you but i will pray for you, i did it and i know you can i went from a 18 to a 6! know let the lord lead you even with weight lose god is able.




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    2. Lauren
      June 7, 2010 at 3:20 pm

      While I wish you all the happiness in the world, I do think there is no happiness greater than loving every inch of your body, lumps and all. Having this “ideal” body with the tiny waist and big boobs is so off mark. I think you CAN love your body without losing that last bit of weight. Sure, there will probably be girls skinnier than you and there will probably be girls bigger than you but I guarantee, there WILL be at least one person who thinks YOU are the most beautiful woman.




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    3. June 8, 2010 at 2:48 pm

      I agree with the last comment 100% and add that I feel your pain. I haven’t been able to drop 30 lbs myself and I’ve never had this much trouble before. Best of everything to you.
      Sincerely!




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    4. IntenseMagic
      June 9, 2010 at 3:31 am

      Please don’t consume 500 calories. 1200 minimum.




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