You touch me, and sometimes, you make me feel like a whore. All you do is say “hey sexy”, but it doesn’t even make me feel like the feeling other beautiful girls feel when their boyfriends tell them they’re beautiful. Every time you lay your hand on my thigh moving it higher, it makes me feel like I’m not important to you or to any one else, and that’s not even the worst feeling i ever got. Not being loved is a horrible feeling. I see other girls held from the waist by their loved ones, and it just brings me down, i try to hide it with a smile, but it never works. I had many loved ones, and none of them ever made me feel that way. I try to make myself think I’m loved by some one in the world who will love me for who i am, but I’m not sure if that person exists or they’re just in my dreams. And sometimes I wish I would fall asleep and never wake up, just to feel like every girl should feel “beautiful and loved”. If i found that special person out there, i hope that person will make me feel special. Every time I look in the mirror, i see a girl who’s not a very happy person. I feel like I’m crap, not important. Later at night i cry myself to sleep, feeling worthless.
I just wany to be loved.