I like having you in my life and that is why I know I could never actually say these things to your face. But I want you to be more apart of my life then you are at this time…that you ever have been. Caring for you is eating me up from the inside out and I’m finding it harder and harder to deal with the pressure of these things. I know I should just tell you goodbye…but before I do there’s so many things I really want to tell you.
I don’t think she loves you, you know your wife. You say so yourself that you have to fight for her attention and that all you do when you guys are together is fight, and she doesn’t have sex with you because as you have told me before, “touching you is making me sick.” She doesn’t deserve you and all the amazing things I know you do for her. And now suddenly you avoid being around me because things are finally going well for you with her?
It’s not fair to me. You tell me you care for me and yet I’m not seeing it. I’m not feeling it. Maybe she does deserve you, and you deserve her crap. You’ll never, and I’ll stake my life on this, you’ll never be as happy with her as you have been and still could be with me. But lets just hope that by the time you realize it, I’ll already be gone and over you so you can feel some of the pain you have been putting me through for a couple of months now.
You have my heart for now but lets hope it doesn’t last much longer.