Can you not see that this is killing me? You act like its not a big deal.Everyday I wake up and hope that all of this was a horrible nightmare, but then I remember this is reality. This wasn’t supposed to happen. I told you to be careful! How could you be so stupid? Everyday I think about it. Those 3 letters. I don’t want you to die young. I can’t imagine my life without you in it. The hardest part about this whole things is that I’m the only one that knows. I can’t talk to anyone about it. You knew he had the bug. Why did you sleep with him anyway? Why?! Did you not think of your mom? Sisters? Nieces? Me?! Your mom is going to be crushed. Completely crushed. I think about your situation everyday. I’ve become numb to it. I can’t cry anymore. I don’t feel angry. I just feel nothing. You are my best friend. You always will be. You mean the world to me. I just don’t know if I can handle this.