• Abandonment

    by  • February 24, 2010 • Parents, To Everybody • 1 Comment

    I have spent my whole life being afraid of people, feelings and being alone and yet I cling to loneliness because I don’t know how to bond ? I’m so afraid of strong emotional feeling that its just easier now to mentaly and emotionaly isolate. And yet I still afrad to have people know that i’m this way so I hide behind being a bitch and not wanting to repeat the past relationship errors I made . And I don’t hate you for the child you were unable to love and nurture I made the same mistakes and know the demon was stronger then us. I thank God that I was save from spending the rest of my life in hell but in some ways I will always be in in a living prison.

    One Response to Abandonment

    1. Lisa
      September 30, 2011 at 4:41 am

      You my friend are a gift from God. Each day you get up and put on your clothes to go to school or work, it can seem mundane and void of meaning.but your life here on this earth matters. you have purpose, purpose to spread joy and not pain. purpose to live your life for God and to further his kingdom here on earth. Don’t think about how others may judge you, be the looks of your letter I’m sure that doesn’t matter to you. Just go to Church and worship and listen to the words.Think of Jesus sacrifice and how he laid his life down for you. He overcame death and you can overcome hopelessness. He is HOPE.

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