I have spent my whole life being afraid of people, feelings and being alone and yet I cling to loneliness because I don’t know how to bond ? I’m so afraid of strong emotional feeling that its just easier now to mentaly and emotionaly isolate. And yet I still afrad to have people know that i’m this way so I hide behind being a bitch and not wanting to repeat the past relationship errors I made . And I don’t hate you for the child you were unable to love and nurture I made the same mistakes and know the demon was stronger then us. I thank God that I was save from spending the rest of my life in hell but in some ways I will always be in in a living prison.